I didn’t have any space or margin in my life, not because there wasn’t any to be had, but b/c I had not been intentional in making it. Spiritually and emotionally and mentally speaking I could no longer breathe.
When I was in high school I remember thinking that being a Christian would be easier when I got to college. When I was in college I remember thinking that being a Christian would be easier after I graduated. After I graduated and later felt a call to ministry I remember thinking that being a Christian would be easier when I was paid to be one. I don’t know why I thought any of those things, because it hadn’t gotten easier at any of the steps along the way. If anything, moving into full-time ministry had made it harder to live out a life of faith.
At the point that I reached year 18 of paid ministry, things had never gotten easier and I was feeling the pinch of life, ministry, family, and constant activity with a generous portion of stress and anxiety poured on top. I was stressed out, overworked, exhausted, and quickly losing passion for ministry. At that point I felt God nudging me and telling me to make_space.
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I didn’t have any space or margin in my life, not because there wasn’t any to be had, but b/c I had not been intentional in making it. Spiritually and emotionally and mentally speaking I could no longer breathe. Thankfully my church blessed me with a 30-day sabbatical to get away and be refreshed and renewed.
My wife and I initiated that sabbatical time with a trip to the tattoo parlor where I got that phrase permanently printed on my forearm.
It will be a constant reminder to intentionally make space for God, for breath, for rest, for life-giving relationship, for reflection, and for anything else that would bring joy and life rather than the bone-weary-exhaustion that I had come to believe was normal.
Regularly spending time with a Spiritual Director has now become a major part of the way I personally make_space in the midst of busy life, and my dream is to create an environment where that can be true for others. That’s the purpose of this blog, this website, and eventually my Spiritual Direction Practice for others. May you make_space for God and those things which are life-giving and a blessing for you.
[Sidenote: I am currently training to become a Spiritual Director. You can check that portion of the website to read more about what that entails. I am not currently taking clients until my certification is complete, but in the mean time please keep up with my writing here, along with some other opportunities that I share along the way.]
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